Well, it has finally happened..........I am a school counselor!  I am so nervous, but I think I am more nervous about dealing with Kindergarten kids than I am with anything else.  This school year will be an experience that is fo sho!  I'm looking forward to the challenge though.  After all....we learn from those challenges.  I will probably learn more than I ever wanted to though - haha!!

Surprises

Well, more surprises kept coming my way this past week (actually yesterday).  I'm not going into a lot of detail yet because I'm still hoping that this surprise won't come true.  Let me just say that it's not smart to judge other people's kids because your children could be doing something a whole lot worse or at least as equally as bad.

I'm leaving it there this week because as I said, I'm not ready to discuss this weeks surprise, so it's better not to talk about it yet.

Road Blocks.......

We all have to deal with road blocks, don't we?  I don't really know if that is the perfect title for this post, but I can't think of the right one at the moment.  Maybe I will before I finish this post.  I have had a few things thrown at me over the past few days that I don't know how to handle.

One of them is professionally.  I'm a teacher.  I love teaching.  I was asked to make a change in my career for this upcoming school year.  I needed a change, so I decided to go forth with it.  I would switch to 6th literacy.  No problem.  I spent the last week looking at and subscribing to (because that's what a REAL blogger does) teaching blogs that I thought could help me.  I found a plethora of new ideas that I wanted to try.  Well, I made the mistake of going to school Monday.  Why was it a mistake?  Because I was told that I may not be teaching 6th after all.  Instead they may move me to GT.  Okay.  I can handle that.  It would mean that I would have to go back to get certified.  I CAN do that, but do I really want to do that?  I don't know.  There's still some debate going on in my head over that which is, by the way, leaving me with a headache.  I'm slowly regretting my decision to leave my comfort in 7th/8th grade.  Oh well........what will be will be.

The next thing that has thrown me for a loop is personal.  I have a part of my family that I have chosen to keep out of my life.  Over the past few years I have managed to get to the point where I don't think about these people at all.  They are basically nonexistent to me.  Or they were until Saturday when my mom forwarded me an email.  My uncle's wife wrote a book discussing how she processed my uncle's suicide.  I was so mad when I found out about this.  How dare she try to profit off of this?  I loved my uncle, but I was so mad at him when he died.  How could he be that selfish?  But I digress...I, of course, ordered this book from Amazon.  I wanted to see what she had written.  I think, deep down, I also wanted to see what she had to say about my family.  I was ready to sue her for defamation, if there was any.  It would take me too long to actually put into words how I felt about this, but I was not happy.

The book came in the mail today.  I've already finished it.  I have a lot of mixed emotions about what I read.  Part of me is hurt that my dad and the rest of my family were pretty much left out of the book, but then I look at that as a blessing too.  My family doesn't need that.  We have made peace with what happened to my uncle, and we are all okay now.  We have a very strong faith in God, and that is where we go to help sort things like that out.  My aunt claims to have a spiritual peace as well, but I don't know if her's is truly with God.  However, that is her business and something she must deal with.  I do feel bad for what she has had to deal with, but there is a part of me that wants to blame her for my uncle's suicide.  I know that is wrong because my uncle had much deeper problems than I believe even she knew about.  However whatever part she may or may not have played in my uncle's suicide is on her, and she will have to deal with it.  I just need to go back to my life without them.

Okay..............I've gotten that off of my chest.  Maybe it's good, maybe it's not......

An Introduction of sorts and rambling.............

Hello My Friends!!

I have no idea what this blog will about.  And I really don't want to set a specific theme for it because I may post about different things each time I post.  What I do know is that I want a place to unload on anything that I want to unload about.  That almost sounds like this will be a negative blog, but it won't.  I promise because I don't want negativity.   I want to rid my life of that.

So....how do I want to begin?  Well today is Father's Day.  I have the most awesome daddy (whom I still need to call)!  God granted me one of the best.  I like to think that I'm like him.  We are both level headed for the most part, and we are happy to be left alone with a good book.  I love my daddy!  My children were also pretty blessed with an amazing dad.  As much as I hate to admit it, I think they (my kiddos) would rather hang with their dad than they would me.  :(  Oh well.....they are still lucky!!

Another good thing that I'm afraid is going to turn into a bad thing is the birth of my nephew, Case Russell Cardin. That's him with my son in the pic. He is AMAZING!  I know this, and he hasn't even left the hospital yet.  He's a fighter just like his brother.  Now, why do I say that it might turn out to be a bad thing?  Well.....I don't want to get into it yet.  I want to wait a few weeks to see how life goes.  

So there it is.  My first post as boring as it may be..............